Sweet n bitter

2009-12-06T06:40:00.000-08:00

Finally, can breath a little easier now, competition is finally over, and it shows that I sucks at chess, geez, I am the worse player ever. Love Pui Yee so much, she is just so cute, and Yu Ning too, even though she is always full of evil schemes, haha. Good thing my team didn't get last, even though we didn't get any prizes, but still it's better than last. Poor yan xin, her team got last, well, after all she is the only good player in her team, so it's no big surprise, even though I like her and we are in the same school, it's still fun at times to plot ways to defeat her, haha, man, I admire her skills, she is great in chess, everyone says so, and it's the truth. Well, I got a jacket, tracksuit, a shirt, and a cap from there, it's free =) But the thing, it's red color, oh man, why am I always stuck with that color, when I see that, I will instantly remember the color of the school chess team T-shirt, it's so bright, love the Barat Daya T-shirt though... Well, departing to Fraser Hill tomorrow, yay, actually not really looking forward to it, the journey is going to be bored, going to sleep in the van, brought my pillow along with me, =D
P.S. Must try to complete Sherlock Holmes's book this holiday

2009-11-21T22:38:00.000-08:00

Yes! Finally, it's holiday time, I have been looking forward to it for ages. But still, so sad that I cannot hug koh koh and tell her goodbye, same goes with my darling and pei pei dear, all because I was sick. Feeling better now, and thanks for all those who asked how I am feeling now. This hols, I am playing my play station like crazy =) watch a lot of movies too, loving Ouran High School Host Club more and more, and doing all the other stuffs I cannot do during schooldays, yeah, life's great now. The only thing dampen my mood a little bit, is the chess training, feeling a bit lazy, haha, and don't like the feeling of being tortured by my club president, gosh, hope she's just joking around with me. But still I am a big fan of chess, even though I stinks at chess and may never be as good as Pui Yee or Yan Xin, I still love it, hooray for chess!!! Yay, going to Fraser Hill for vacation, but schedule's a bit pack in December, I have chess competition on the 5th and 6th, hope I can win a trophy back home, going to Fraser Hill on 7th and 8th, chess training again at 28th and 29th, going to stay in hotel in 30th something, I think. Guess I will have more to tell after I came back from my vacation, expecting this holidays to be relaxing... Hope my dream will come true

P.s. Tada, I wrote this for you, hui yin, seriously, I am really lazy to update my blog, haha, hm... a lot of people are always pressuring me to update my blog, I have no idea why, well, okay, enjoy your hols, same to everybody else.

Pangkor!

2009-09-20T04:32:00.000-07:00

18th, 19th and 20th of September, I follow the school chess team to Pangkor island for chess training, I know that most people will say that why in the world are you guys going to Pulau Pangkor for chess training, well, whatever, I don't know the answer anyway. Anyway, I sat with Yan Xin in the bus, both of us are so quiet, I don't know what to say to her, but still, it's okay, i suppose. We stayed at the Pangkor Holiday Resort, a little advice for everyone, NEVER go there!!! It's horrible, we stayed in a hostel sort of place, four person a room. I share the room with Yan Xin and two other small girls which I don't know their name. The room has no televisyen or TOILET, there are two double decker beds, I took the bottom, haha. There was chaos when we enter the room, all of us were shouting and screaming, oh my god. I didn't bring any towel and there's none at the room, I was in a panic. Fortunately, smart Yan Xin thought of a solution, all thanks to her. The girl's toilet is at the far end at the corridor which is so far from ours, urgh, scary and there are so many bugs. Some more the toilet doors can not lock, the rest of them all went to their parents' room to bath, so there's only me and Yan Xin left. We go down to the first floor to bath, kinda eerie, but at least there's two of us, =) After we go to 'train', we went to Tjin Li's room, they all play poker, for the first night, I just watch. Three guys and six girls squeezed in a room, apparently that's what they all do every time. They played until about 1 o'clock, I was so tired at that time, but I stayed with them. It was a total different lifestyle, which is kinda fun. Next day we woke up at 7.30, one of the small girls' mother came and woke us up, Yan Xin was the quickest to react, she was the first one to woke up and jump down from her bunk to open the door. We played six games that day, and also watch a little bit of CD. We also went to a round-island tour that day, we also took some photos, hehe. That day, I join them to play snap, which is the only game I know, then later at night, at about 12, we stopped playing and start to chat, including the boys as well, it's fun, we chat until 1 o'clock. The final day of our trip, we woke up at 7.40, haha, although breakfast was at 7.30. After a session of prize giving and chess puzzles, we went to the beach, woohoo, fun!!! The sea water is so cool, after that we went to wade in the baby pool in the resort. After that, we start packing and prepare to depart. After having our lunch, we went to the port. We board the ferry, oh man, the ferry was so horrible, there are flies everywhere, eeewww. Finally we arrived at Lumut and start our long journey back to Penang, as usual, the guys play poker again, I just sleep most of the time because I am tired, it was soooo fun, wonder if i will be able to go again next time, xD

Merentas Desa 2009 =)

2009-08-15T00:21:00.000-07:00

It was my first year going to the merentas desa, it was so fun!!! Actually I didn't plan to go up the hill, but then, it won't be interesting, so, in the end, i went up with kx, yay, and we DID reach the top, with renee and others. The people at the last station took a photo of us as well, I was too weary to even think of taking out my hand phone to take photos, phew, it's so tiring, but still it's worth it. Even though it means I have to miss my maths tuition, sob... When we reach the top, we were almost the last batch, plenty of people have already reach the school. I heard there was a small pondok that serve free 'liang cha', it sounds tempting, but i was too tired to go more as we need to go a little bit more to get the free drink. So I went back down, hoping to get to school in time (there's a two hour limit for those who want to take sijil). We walked down fast, and we didn't stop to rest for fear of passing the time limit, we succeed in the end, we got the sijil, yay, i feel so proud of myself. I was so worried about kx since i was the one who dragged her along, good thing nothing bad happen, saw diok koh2, xuan wei, and hf, and also x, my god, must she be good in every darn thing?!!! And oh yeah, I am so happy, hui yin is so nice, she gave me a huge teddy bear soft toy for my birthday present, omg, I am so touch!!! She's so sweet and cute, planning to tell her thanks again =DD, thanks hui yin, really happy with your present...

p.s. My poor darling, she had to collect the rubbish since she was the warden kebersihan, lolx. XY, Felicia Chan, ZM and HL didn't come today, wonder what happen to them...

2009-08-01T09:02:00.000-07:00

You know, it's been so long since i start writing again, because there is simply nothing to write!!! Ok, so well, firstly, i fail my piano exam, which is so sad, i cried in front of my teacher, because it's a huge blow, cry again in the car, cry again at home, feeling better now. I feel that this year there is nothing that sparks my life, no arguments, no love story, just a lot of stress and homework, but anyway, there is something good about this year. This year actually happen a lot of things, but just not as emotional as last year, i cry a lot this year, i realized. Okay, so erm, i slip in my grade, must be more hardworking from now on, but apparently that wont happen. The best thing that happen this year is probably yx is talking to me again, i know it's unbelievable, it's like nothing happen between us, i have no idea what to expect, but i dare not put too much hopes in her yet, or it might happen again, and i don't think i can take it. I guess it's best this way, at least now we wont be so tense with each other, sometimes i wonder, i it me that who's being too paranoid? This year, I also know some cool juniors, like hui yin for example, she's so cute, and yu ning, i like to tease her and see her get mad, muahaha, i am such a bad senior, they are so cool, love those two so much!!! They sure cheer up my life even though i dont see them much. And oh ya, i bond with my darling (xue ni, muakz) a lot this year too since i sit the same bus with her, sin pei and su-ann as well. In class, i normally will argue with zhi min, even though we sit together, she always move away, and leave me alone there. She very fierce towards me, dont think that she looks cute and short but she very fierce and strong, like a chilli =) she is also like a kangaroo, haha, the way she jumps around when she's mad. I owe her a lot for teaching me add maths, eva too, thanks to both of them, i understand add maths gradually, love you two too. But not as much as i love my darling, lolx, I miss HL, miss her so much, haiz, i wish i can talk to you again about so many things, sob, missing you. Yay, my birthday is coming, this year i wish i can go to kl with the chess team, oh please, please, let me go, i really want to go!!! As usual I still miss HF, still do and always will, well, it will just all be memories in the future, i suppose... Exam is just around the corner, and here i am still typing this thing, haha, I am gonna fail, i think

2008-12-24T05:06:00.000-08:00

13th and 14th of December, chess competition, the Penang chess league, it's a nightmare, well at least for me. Well, we are all separated into 3 groups, Yi Chen, me, and Yuen Sue, are team captains. The first day, the match begins at afternoon, till night time 9.30 pm!!!

Everyone was so shock, but what could we do? I couldn't found the place where it was held. I was so panic, as I am quite late, fortunately, Yuen Sue answered her phone. Or else, I think I am dead meat. My team got a reserve, and I am the captain, =) but I stink.

My whole team were there quite early, we sometimes didn't play, as Xing Ling wants to play. In the end, all of us got a break at least twice, except Shin Nee, and she was the greatest of us all!!!
If our team didn't have her, we are doom, I am serious.

Anyway, things were okay, i suppose, all of us lose, except Shin Nee. Thank goodness, she was in our team. We had dinner together, a burger each. Its very tiring, as we were in a rush, we still have one hour left. We walked around, but saw nothing except a few stalls and a lot of Malays. In the end, we settle on the burger, annoyingly, that person was extremely slow and he forgot my order.

So mine was extra long, with Yuen Sue and Yi Chen as well. The rest, namely Yan Xin and Shin Nee already finish their burgers. Theirs were faster, Xin Ying and Xing Ling brought their own things. We had to eat like crazy, because we had only 20 minutes left. It was so stupid, I was unwell, and having a headache, so I sit out the last match that day.

The next day, we had to arrive there quite early, about 8 something. That day, still the same, Shin Nee wins only, all lose, except me draw 1 and win 1. That day, everyone is smarter, they brought their own lunch, except Yan Xin and Yuen Sue, so they went together, thank goodness, I didn't went with them, phew...

During the last match, unbelievably, Shin Nee lost, she must had been too panic and careless that she blunder. On the other hand, Xin Ling lost too, the funny thing is, our opponent are only small kids. And we are at the last table, I don't blame them, must be the tension. In the end, Shin Nee draws, at least that helps us got a 1/2 mark, yay! xD

I am quite optimistic, it;s okay if we didn't win, its in my expectations anyway, hehe. The most important thing is, we gain experience and improve our bond. Besides, only one team from our school receive a price. But we were the last if compare with my school teams. T.T

PCGHS A	PCGHS A	R1	R2	R3	R4	R5	R6	R7	R8	Total
1	Chin Yuen Sue	1	1	1	0	0	0	0		3
2	Hoh Tjin Li	1	1	1	0	0	0.5	1		4.5
3	Lee Yan Xin	0	1	1	0	0	0	0		2
4										0
		2	3	3	0	0	0.5	1	0	9.5

Yuen Sue's group, they were in 33th place, they receive 2nd place among the girls team. All three of them are very geng, thumbs up to them.

PCGHS B	PCGHS B	R1	R2	R3	R4	R5	R6	R7	R8	Total
1	Fong Yi Chen	0	0	0.5	0	0.5	0			1
2	Lim Yu Chia	0	1	1	1	1	0.5	0		4.5
3	Lim Yu Ning		0	1				0		1
4	Oo Zhi Xin	0.5			1	0	0	0		1.5
		0.5	1	2.5	2	1.5	0.5	0	0	8

The second group in 44th place, they are very good too, but they lose to the Unions, pity. haiz...

PCGHS C	PCGHS C	R1	R2	R3	R4	R5	R6	R7	R8	Total
1	Law XIn YIng	0		0	0	0	0			0
2	Ang Shin Nee	1	1	0	1	1	0	0.5		4.5
3	Su Wen Xin	0	0		0.5		0	1		1.5
4	Cheong Xing Ling		0	0		0		0		0
		1	1	0	1.5	1	0	1.5	0	6

My group, the worst, sob, we only got 6 marks total, good thing we got Shin Nee, or else, it will be even horrifying. My group at 54th, the last third group if count from behind, omg!!!

Our coach got attend too, he always curl his hair with his finger when he plays chess. Sometimes he will get up and go around, observing us.

Intel A	Intel A	R1	R2	R3	R4	R5	R6	R7	R8	Total
1	Ng Tze Han	1	1	0	1	0	1	1		5
2	Marcus Chan	1	1	1	1	0.5	0.5	1		6
3	Lim Cheong Wan	0.5		0	0.5	0.5	0			1.5
4	Teoh Giap Seng		1					1		2
		2.5	3	1	2.5	1	1.5	3	0	14.5

Coach's team, coach was captain, the first one. Their group got 6th place, quite good. =D

That's about all, I didn't stay for the closing ceremony, there's no need anyway, as we don't have any hope, sob. But as I say, at least we got experience, better than nothing, right?

2008-12-03T18:48:00.000-08:00

I got lose in the caves accidentally,
I forgot the way I walked in, so i was stuck there.
I always believe that as long as I keep on moving
I will eventually leave this place and reunite with outside,
but no matter how far I walk, it never ends,
until one day, I finally succumbed, tears flowed out,
do I realised, that I have been stupid the whole time,
There will never be a beginning for me again,
because at the mouth of the cave, there marked the end of our bonds.

2008-11-26T21:37:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday mei!!!
I know you want people to wish you
so,
have a happy happy birthday!!!
muakz...

2008-11-12T05:16:00.000-08:00

12th of November, the best day in this whole year, I finally can go to a trip with all my classmates. But most importantly, I finally have a picture of me and HF, yay!!! It was a bit awkward though...
We all wait impatiently at the foyer, even though the waiting time was half an hour, time sure pass quickly when you are surrounded by friends. The bus trip was fun, some of us already took out their food and share it with their friends, it was fun.
USM was so big, it's like a small town, inside even got a lake, cool!!! I am so relieve we went there with E3E, and we don't have to go for the dance training too, even cool!!! Before we enter the museum, we already took tons of photos. This is more like a photo trip than a museum trip, its so much fun.
We stroll around the museum, it was fairly big which was weird because this is an university. It just exceed my expectations. Anyway, after some time, we were all gathered and were taught how to make a water rocket. The lecturer seem so hilarious when teaching, but he was actually a very fierce person, and keep scolding my team, as we are too slow for his taste.
Then we went outside to launch the rocket, it was extremely hot. Every launcher of the rocket were so nervous, in my case it was Yi Yen, she was a bit scare but in the end it was still her who pull the string. Yay! Brave Yi Yen!
Oh ya, did I mention, my team had to make a parachute too, and we all got scolded again, seriously we were all fumbling when he nearly shout at us. Geez, he is so impatient.
I got the whole rocket launching thing recorded, we all ran for cover when the rocket felt. No idea where it was going to land, and if we got hit, there is a huge possibility we might die, *gasp, so shock...
Later, its time for more photos, then we go and listen to a astronomy ceramah, it was very cramped in the room, so many people, so little space. The white soft cushions are so nice to sit on. After listening to his speech, it gives me the urge to want to join his team of astronomy meeting. It sounds so fun...
Later, more photo taking, and our stupid bus came late, leaving us stranded there. While all the other E3E students had already returned. We are all so hungry and hot, we all scolded the bus driver, muahaha!!!
But in the end, all of us still managed to return in one piece, although everyone start to ponteng and nobody returned class.
All in all, it was enjoyable and fun. The best thing is that we can took photos and keep it as memories, that, I think, is the best part of the whole trip.

2008-11-07T05:28:00.000-08:00

Tagged by Tse Yuin
01. What have you been doing recently?
sms, reading, and chat

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yes.

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
recess time, read a bit of tingkatan 4 anak Laut

04. When did you last cry?
after I gave Hui Fen wrote my book...

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
yes.

06. What do you want in your life right now?
Yx, Hui Fen, pmr 8As, same class with my good friends

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
prefer hood, because lazy

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
my pillows!!!

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
shorts

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
Its a secret, but its the sms Hui Fen first send me to apologise, yay!!!

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
no, but sometimes its unavoidable

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
no, I don't borrow other peoples' clothes

13. What was the last movie you caught?
forget already, too long...

14. What are you proud of?
a novel maniac, and my courage of 'confessing' to ..

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
'can. but I am just an ordinary student, nothing special. May I know who are you?'

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
A japanese song...

17.Do you have any nicknames?
yes. quite a few

18. What does your last received text message say?
can you come to my farewell party? from Yun Wei

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
12 am

20. Are you currently happy?
not really...

21. Who gives you best advice?
SHL

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Er... no.

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
Yun wei

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Yes, why Yx don't want to talk to me???

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Kx getting anry at me and yee jen, so comical...

26. Do you wear toe socks?
No. What is that anyway?

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Yun Wei

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes, quite a lot this year

29. What annoys you most in a person?
a double crosser, and couldnt accept me for who I am

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Yes.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
No, and NEVER!!!

32. What is the colour of your room?
beige

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
probably...

34. Do you believe in the saying of :"talk is cheap?"
What does it mean?

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
me =D

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Xuan Wei

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
No, because I still haven't kiss anyone

38. Do you have a life?
Duunno, but probably yes

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
Erm... don't really understand... @.@

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
because I like it

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Yx

42. Last time you smiled?
today.

43. Have you changed this year?
Yes, a lot

44. What are you listening right now?
nothing

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Yes, shin nee (my mei)

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Eyes open, duh...

47. Is there a quote you live by?
Not specifically, anything I see fit will do

48.Do you want someone you cannot have?
Yes, Yx and HF

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Yes, piano, a little bit of violin and recorder

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
Tackle Yx

51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
chatting with Shin Nee

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
Not really...

53. What song best describes your love life?
No idea...

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
I don't think so, but maybe its better that way...

55. Who always make you laugh?
My friends and family...

56. Do you speak any other language other than English?
Chinese, Malay, a bit of cantonese and Japanese

57. Favourite website(s)?
friendster gua...

58. What's your middle name?
Wen

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
plotting what to ask Yx, and finish Breaking Dawn

60.What do you think you are like?
A crazy and persistent girl

61. Who will you choose to die with?
erm, nobody for now, but probably HF

62. Where have you been today?
Gurney, with kx and Yee Jen to celebrate Yee Jen's farewell

63. What game do you play often?
Atelier Iris 3 and Final Fantasy

64. Who are you missing right now?
Hui Fen, HL, Yx, Shin Nee, and bj

65. If you have to choose between friend n loves, who will you choose?
loves... =>

66. What are you doing right now?
answering the questions...

67. Which primary school are you from?
SMJK (C) Sum Sun

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
purple, black and white

69. What emotion you like to show?
happy...

70. What is your life to you?
No idea

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
talk it out with my friends, think about it, the possibilities and the outcome

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Shin Nee

73. Who do you admire most?
Hui Fen, Lincoln

74. Which month are you born in?
August =)

75. How are you feeling right now?
depress and lonely

76. What is the time now?
10.26 pm

77. what kind of person do u think the one who tagged u is?
a bossy and (sometimes) annoying person, muahaha

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
I don't dye my hair

79.Why are you doing this test?
Because i think its really interesting

80. What do you do when you're moody?
Eat chocolates, sms with HF, chat with HL and Shin Nee

81. At which age you wish to get married?
30 years old

82. Who is more important to you? Girlfriend or friends?
both...

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will YOU DO?
Haven't thought about it yet, but probably got something to do with Yx or Hf, haha

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
HL

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yes, because its a fact, right?

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
Me and all my good friends together forever, especially Yx n ...

87. What is your goal for this year?
acchive 100 sms with Hf and become friends again with Yx (which is a bit impossible)

88. Do you believe in eternal love?
maybe, half half

89. What feeling do you love most?
Surrounded by all my precious and important friends

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
Yes, which is so sad T.T

91.What feelings you hate the most?
being betrayed, and avoid

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yes. EVERY!!!

93. Do you believe in God?
Not really

94. Who cares for you most?
My parents??? My friends???

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
friends

96. What will you bring when you fight?
My strength

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
telling Yx that I like her (as a friend), don't misunderstood!!!

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
Terribly sad...

99. What if your stead two-timed you?
Angry...

100.HOW DO U FEEL NOW?
Confuse and still lonely...

I tagged Shin Nee and anybody who is willing to do this.

2008-11-06T07:01:00.000-08:00

Doubt

In doubt whether to do a stupid thing, if the result is positive, its all good then, but if its negative... Can anyone tell me what am I suppose to do??? This could be the last and final chance I can finally speak to her again, and that is why I don't want to waste it.
But then again, what is the point to go through all that trouble for nothing. people say I am a rash and hasty person, am I? I don't think so, but I am going to prove to everyone this time, that I will consider it very carefully first...
I never realise how much I really miss her, just seeing her typed message, make me feel a pang of sadness. Only now, do I realise how much I really care about her and miss her. Am I going to take a gamble, and risk it all? I have nothing to lose, just I will never see her online ever again, forever!!!
What am I rambling about, I am seriously confuse, the best medicine is a good talk with her, though I wonder if I will get that chance... Life is so hard, why does she have to make it all so complicated, why is she so sensitive and touchy?
But most importantly, why do I care about her so much???!!! Its already been 3 months, why couldn't I just couldn't get over her and move on??? Why??? Its killing me, seriously, it is, I am going crazy soon... Why am I so greedy? isn't hf enough? Why am I using so many whys?

2008-10-24T08:05:00.000-07:00

Good luck! (this is specially for shin nee)

Best of luck in your exam, mei, ur jie will always support u!>.<

P.s. if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, i will always lend you 1, ok? muax, sayang u... And I am sorry you couldnt see this before your exam

2008-10-23T05:58:00.000-07:00

I wish I can go out with my school friends, so many of them i want to go with, dunno if I can squeeze everybody in my schedule, or can they go out with me?
1st yee jen
2nd maggi mi n bear
3rd wen chien n xin ling
4th shin nee and some chess members
5th xin ying n bear
6th turtle's house
7th xiao jun's house n pui yee's
8th maggi mi's n wen chien's house
9th alina
10th tse yuin
11th ying ying n bear
12th yi xuan n yi wei
13th pui yee

still counting, well, dunno how to cramp all dat into the holidays

2008-10-19T00:34:00.001-07:00

What I have been through for the past three months

I don't know if I should be happy or despair. Because of someone, I get to know another person, which i never have the guts to speak to. One sad ending lead to another happy opening.

Yet I was truly hurt by that someone, she really rip my heart to pieces, I really feel like crying, but is it worth it? People say I am stupid, to be hurt over someone who didn't even have feelings for me. But I just couldn't find myself to hate her, no matter how much she cause despair and miserable for me.

Actually, I owe her, and if I have the chance, I would like to say thank you to her, for letting me having the chance to finally talk to 'A'. And, thank you to 'A' too, for not avoiding me and chat with me when you hardly know me, I am really touch. Maybe you don't know, but you are actually my life savior, so a big Thanks to you!!!

Oh, shouldn't forget H, she listen to all my problems and give me advices all the time, I wouldn't have got through that hard time without her, so I owe her too, thank you, I am really glad i got u as a friend. =D

Sometimes, I still wonder what did I really do that anger 'her', whatever I did, I am really sorry, and I really hope we can be friends again someday.

2008-10-17T06:52:00.000-07:00

To all the STPM students, wish you all all the best in your exams, especially, you...

2008-10-17T06:41:00.000-07:00

If you see this, yi wei, just want to tell u dat I really appreaciate what u did 4 me, really like it! So... thanks a lot ya, and wish u and yi xuan gt 8 As. Hope we can be in the same class next year, XD
P.s. keep it a secret between us, ok?

Happy Birthday!

2008-10-17T06:38:00.000-07:00

Sorry, Tse Yuin, cannot on9 4 a long time, but anyway, Happy Belated Birthday!!! Always be happy and hope we both get good results! =p
P.s. This proves I update my blog ade, so no complains please... n sorry

2008-09-08T00:16:00.000-07:00

My world

The devil that makes me cry,
even though I am hurt and bruised by you,
I can't forget about you, it pains me,
Why am I feeling this way?

The angel that makes me smile,
you are the kindest person I ever met,
you are my saviour, my shiny prince in armour,
Is it right for me to fall for you?

The devil and the angel,
I couldn't live without the both of them,
The pain and suffering i feel from the devil,
are soothed by my dearest angel,
making it my world balance.

But the angel is leaving me soon,
leaving me alone with the devil, my sadness
Why is fate playing with my feelings?

Time could change everything, i used to believe that,
now its just a lie, how long will i need to forget you?
Time changes everything, it stole my angel,
making me alone with the devil,
how will i able to survive through hell alone?

Tears wetting my cheeks,
my thoughts thinking only of my angel,
soon we will be apart, but my thoughts will stay with you,
thinking of you will encourage me,
making me to face my fears.

The day I part with my angel,
is also the day I am meting the devil,
A sad yet chaotic day.

2008-09-05T05:03:00.000-07:00

For HF, who is very precious to me

You

A feeling of emptiness engulf me,

leaving behind nothing but darkness,

a ray of light appear in the midst,

I chase after it, the ray of hope,

like a pack of hungry wolves chasing their victims.

Even for a short while, your light cheers me up,

even at a distance, i can still feel your warmth,

you melts my heart with your warmth and kindness,

warming every part of my body,

saving me from the pit of nightmares.

The light glimmer at a distance far from my grasp,

threatening to disappear anytime,

leaving me alone again to face my nightmares,

I chase after you desperately, my final dream,

fear of you disappearing haunt me every second.

I groped like a blind man in the darkness,

hoping one day to finally reach you,

but I touch nothing, only empty air,

day by day the distance between us increase,

is my hope merely a childish dream?

2008-09-05T04:38:00.000-07:00

For YX, who I care as a friend

Our Bridge

You broke our bridge while I tag along behind,

picking up the pieces mending the bridge,

but you ran further from me, breaking the bridge apart,

the damages so serious until I couldn't mend it,

I stare at you on the other side with sadness in my eyes,

what could I do to rebuild the bridge?

2008-08-31T23:10:00.001-07:00

If you think you fufill the conditions I publish earlier, that means you
are one of my good friends!!! And I m happy to know you...

2008-08-31T22:53:00.000-07:00

What is the real meaning of good friends to me
1. Always there for you when you need him/her most
2.Always support you when you are confuse
3.Will always listen to your problem and give advices
4.When its your birthday, they will wish you and maybe give you presents
5.Will always try to find time to spend with you
6Doens't bad mouth you behind your back
7.Stick with you through your hard times
8.Comfort you when you are sad or down
9.When sometimes quarrel with each other, we will still make up
10.Can accept me for who i am
11.Share his/her secrets with you
12.Joke with you and tease you sometimes
13.Won't avoid you when you call out to him/her
14.Know your favourite things and hobbies
15.Always have something to talk about
16.Won't abandon you and find someone else as a new friend